If it looks like I live in a movie scene, Fighting like I'm in the lead, Like everything will make way from me. It's not right. That isn't the reality. I'm just a whole lot mad at the world for being what it always is. Who it thinks it can always be. Taking people away from me. The only ones that made me happy. I can be sorry for who I have become. But I don't always have a chance to see. Because it's always over before I get a chance to see. You send a prayer to the universe. Oh God, if I am being heard. Let me breathe... A little bit of honesty. And if your prayers are just words in the void Those words will be eaten up alive But you will believe.. While your fingers cross and you kiss them softly.. So I cross my fingers too tonight... That if I'm not meant to be Where I want to be.. If I am just that awful one.. Who should leave your shadow instantly.. I hope I fade away.. Like I was never there.. Giving you ... ..a clean slate..