To lose

If i could express
The lamentations that fills
Tears asunder this Soul
And wears me to nought
I would express where
Fury engulfs, strangles deep
Chugs out ones bowels
Till hung by ones own hand
The world twirls its mocking self
Round the edges of loss.
There's no shame in being wiped away
Its normal in this life
Where lives come and go ignorant
To what around them happens daily
The guilt of one lost upon oneself
Is greater than hell's dark fires
But I die here...truly die
Where the scourge of life
Grasps tight my hand
Where no relief is found
I cry, I plead, my voice
Cracked between tears
Falls empty upon the glistening floors
Where God in silence peers
Awaiting something more
Than I thought I had already given.

Alisdaire O'Caoimph
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