I adjusted so much for people I don't know how to understand myself now, I look for a language Words and expressions That could be enough to know Actually how am I feeling! Enough to mine my own heart To extract the realities To feel something for myself, Without fearing 'what they'd think' Without fearing 'what if it hurt?' Without fearing to be judged By those for whom I molded my beliefs, Changed the way I thought, To accommodate their perspective, To make a room so that they could feel home in my heart! . I feel like a corpse Lost all meanings to live, In an attempt to spend a whole life modifying myself To have some precious moments and memories whom I loved more than My- self: My Anguishes and complaints and wishes; My all and all I ever had! .