• whitewings 6w

    Trigger warning

    Suicide, substance abuse, self harm, death

    If I tie a noose around my neck or swallow a hundred pills or run a blade through my wrist today... I'm sure so many people who love me, would grieve, cry and stop eating for a few days. I'm sure some people will call me coward for not having the courage to face whatever was troubling me.
    But I live in a hypocritical society. They'd make such a big issue of the death of someone who killed themselves in one go. But will applaud and dance and cheer with the ones who willingly walk to their graves... a step everyday.
    Sometimes I wonder what if people started to grieve and wail and cry and scream and go numb, as if someone died... everytime a loved one had alcohol or smoked cigarettes. I wonder would that be too much or just a rehearsal of the day... for which they've been preparing every Saturday night and weekday lunch breaks. What if people started to call them cowards for drinking and smoking, for not being able to face whatever was troubling them.
    Death only hits us as a society, when it is sudden and unexpected. Maybe watching someone die slowly, watching someone choose poison day after day, dilutes the emotions. Maybe that is why substance abuse instead of being identified as slow suicide, is embraced as a lifestyle.

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    Death only hits us as a society, when it is sudden and unexpected. Maybe watching someone die slowly, watching someone choose poison day after day, dilutes the emotions. Maybe that is why substance abuse instead of being identified as slow suicide, is embraced as a lifestyle.

    ©whitewings