I hate that

I hate that I need to pay somebody to listen ,

I hate that my self worth is determined by your response and love for me ,
I hate that my tweets don't get as many likes as I wish they did ,
I hate that I constantly check my phone for messages that are not there ,
I hate that I have no friends ,
I hate that I'm just a sad and lonely,
I hate that I'm not fun and impulsive,
I hate that I need to dress up for him ,
I hate that I cry ,
I hate that you'll never know me ,
I hate that I'll be gone tomorrow ,
I hate that there won't be enough of black dresses and muffles and tears and sobs tomorrow ,
I hate that there won't be any loss to anyone tomorrow .