• inkscribbles 5w

    Memories

    ©inkscribbles

    I remember the summer glow with the scent of petrichor hanging in the air
    You feel both warm and cold at the same time
    That's how you made me feel

    I remember how you interlaced our fingers and kept kissing my knuckles and holding me closer to keep me cosy when we went ice skating

    I remember how when I kissed you I figured out something
    That it isn't like in the films
    No electricity or sparks between us like a circuit
    But it was more than that
    A feeling that you couldn't be described but only be felt
    To this day I don't know how to name it.

    I remember how you back hug me and tickle my sides when I was working
    I would stop working and we kiss afterwards till we forget we can survive only by breathing.
    You always seem to know how to get my heart
    Why did you go after you stole it?
    Why did you go after making me feel things that I didn't even know I could or I had?
    Why did you go after telling me I am the one?

    They tell people leave but memories stay
    To me, it's the worst
    Why did you make so many memories with me just to leave?
    I remember so much but I couldn't feel them again no matter how bad I want to.

    I want to feel you kiss my hand so many times that I get irritated and wriggle away
    I want to feel how your delicate lips felt against mine
    I want to feel you tickle me till I can't breathe.

    I want to feel how you made me special
    But all I have of you are memories
    I hate that I still remember them but I couldn't forget
    You are a permanent tattoo that stays with me till I die
    While for you I was just a pen dot that you washed away.
    Did I make you ugly? Am I not good enough?
    To this day I don't know the answer
    To this day I don't know why you let me drown when you said you will teach me to swim
    To this day I don't know why you left me isolated in the dark when I held your hand and calmed you when you had nightmares.

    But I realised that some questions are better unanswered.