Standing alone on shore of ocean in a unknown island felts so frustrating isn't it, but what else I can do other than thinking of someone's help.
There is a ocean between me and the land with population, to reach there I have to cross the big ocean first. There comes the land of living.
What if they don't accept me there even if I cross the ocean, the fear of being rejected was keeping me away from crossing the ocean.
Now I get it, fuck the rejection and present goal is to cross the ocean, I will think about the rejection or acceptance later.
If I pass the time by thinking about rejection then who will build the ship to cross my limits. It's me who have to cross the ocean for that I have to build a boat and I have to row the boat towards that other side shore by making my own way through the sea.