• 3starstotheleft 6w

    “The thing is, I’m still trying to learn to love myself and most of the time I’m terrified that no one is ever going to see the light in me. That’s not your fault and it’s not mine either. I think we caught each other at bad times. You’re fully grown and I’m still arching towards whatever sunshine I can find. You don’t need to be told but I can’t apologise for the days where I can barely find my knees. I won’t apologise for how earnestly I needed you to be there for me. Where my feet still feel like they’re learning to walk. My heart hasn’t found its legs yet, sometimes it stutters and trips on itself, sometimes it speaks so quietly I can barely hear it. There are days when my entire body is an open hand, I will stand in front of you and say ‘please, I need you to love me a little louder today.’ I’m sorry that no one ever taught you how and if they did, you didn’t want to be that kind of flowering with me. We are both learning to adore each other differently. Sometimes that means we can’t be in the same room when it happens. In the meantime, I am going to grow without you, I’m going to tell the sun my name. God, I hope it’s beautiful. I hope it’s hopeful. I hope that we’re both okay.”

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