To escape from myself Under the tap I found a new place today I found it under the gush of water I was drenched in the coldness that the tap bled My eyes , They weren't weeping there They just oozed out liveliness , slowly , happily Every drop of the water that I was using to escape myself Was comforting Feeling warm inside the sore eyes Tired of spilling their own streams ,running down the skin that I had layered upon my shivering teeth My hair , stuck on my head Just like me in life And them falling each day in numbers Increasing everyday , Just like life out of me I brought my palms Close to my belly , pushed it in and pushed it up Trying to gasp as hard as possible And pull out the lungs The lungs , helping the air to get in I try to stop the unseen But No use. Just like me . Useless. Hopeless. They still have a home inside Ridiculous. My own lungs , surviving inside me Got a home to live in a homeless person I let my hands free , out of pity. Staring at my ugly knees Full of marks and scars They don't bleed nor do they complain They don't carry the black , worn out skin beautifully But they still help me walk and sit . I put them down , close to earth , that hit it , everytime. That's life and love right. Hard , hurtful and get close , at the end to repeat the same. The flow of water , Hurts now It's faster than life and lighter than the heart I have inside But it hurts now I reach out the tap , twist it like I'm holding my neck Turn it off , like the imaginary button I wanted , To switch off the life I get up , this time, atleast not hurting myself more I walk out of the bathroom With lots of confusion in my head And a wide smile .
- all the smiles have reasons , big or small , heavy or hard , gloomy or bright , reasons are always there - - the most beautiful smiles are the most complex ones , darling - Vasundhara.