Merely/often

Sometimes it's just a thought that makes you wonder
Where have you been throughout?
A single thought if you're living upon how life has been about.
Someday you wish life was a plan
Other day you know you're just a clueless man
Blatantly projecting your admirations
Upon a shady notion of how it should be
A dark deem knows what you could be
A plain flat wonder
Leaves you lagged
Puts you in places inside your head.
Is it how it's all around?
Maybe , maybe not
For sure it's a lot
To think about.