• _anushka__ 14w

    Pistanthrophobia-
    (n.) Fear of trust.

    @mirakee @writersnetwork #chain #pod

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    Phobia

    Trust never came
    so easy to me, you know?
    I've lived in denial,
    faking trust even to myself,
    Proving me wrong at
    each and every step.

    Truth to be told,
    I lost the ability to trust
    a long time ago,
    I don't exactly remember when,
    but I did.

    I no longer remember
    how it felt like to let go and fall,
    trusting someone to catch you.

    I've been afraid of
    the fall since I let go,
    and there was no one to catch me.
    I'd shattered into a million pieces,
    And I'd to put them together
    in a mess that I'm right now,
    All by myself.
    I've been afraid ever since.

    And these doors
    have remained
    Shut since then,
    oh the chains have rusted.
    I can't open them,
    No matter how much I want,
    no matter how hard I try.

    Look at what I did,
    Oh, I've locked myself in.

    ©_anushka__