Actually, no one owes you anything.
Maybe what you need to do is drop the entitlement mentality.
"If only's"won't help you any more than waiting on others will.
You are in charge of your own life.
You can't allow your present condition determine your entire future.
If you push hard enough, life will submit to you.
The sooner you realize that nobody owes you, the sooner you'll start fighting for your own future.