Turning 20

I'll be 20 in 20 hours,
19 minutes of silence
To think about the 18 ways of how I ruined my life,
Like a 17 year old I'm still not ready for this cruel world
Which tells me 16 times a day how to be a perfect women,
15 times I looked myself in the mirror trying to be someone else
Walking in the road called 14 steps of misery
I taught myself the 13 ways to stay strong
From the 12 evil forces as
11 thorns poked me
With 10 more steps left to walk further
I screamed in 9 ways of agony
As I questioned myself 8 times a day,
Hoping for 7 wonders to happen in my life,
Turning in the 6th street,
Looking at the 5 different ways,
I explored 4 different hells,
Walking through 3 different roads,
Finally to find the 2 real options left,
A life of social expectations and a life of outcasts,
I decided to walk on that 1 new road with a boad road not taken,
Hoping to have 0 regrets in the end.
- thepencilwriter
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