Today I went to IIT delhi to take part in a Creative Writing competition. I wrote on the following prompt given there on the spot:- "You never had the ability to speak or communicate in any way, till this day. The only thing you were able to do was hearing the other people talking trash about you. They don't know that you were able to hear everything they said, and you're going to tell them what you think about them now."
Muted I was Was made so silent yet so loud (inside) Brimming emotions I was compelled to hide Everyone thought I was so decent and nice But they didn't notice that I was murdering my own voice Then in order to hide I used to go in the rains In the bathrooms and wake up late During the nights and cry But rather they used to think I was just shy
Never did they get to know What was killing me inside Was an unimaginable pain In front of everyone Trying to display the same Was just putting efforts in vain Left alone I was In this big crowded world Felt so empty inside Felt nothing there present Except the "Pain" For months and for days My eyes secretly rained Loving compassion I never gained
"Kill me, Kill me with your kindness As I can't handle anymore This Madness This Sadness" A phrase I only wish I could have said From the inside I was As lifeless as Death For all day long I used to just lay in the bed Staring at the ceiling wall Wishing if I could just Never wake up again
Then came a day when I realised I could hold a pen! Can write it out whatever That is present inside My heavy heart and brain It was no other than "This day" That I could make this world realise Their uncompromisable, unforgivable and most importantly the unforgettable "Offence" That they did to me during The ignorant days of my haunting past Leaving all over me Permanent stains
Making my life full of sorrows I was able to see no hopes In todays or tomorrows No sympathy No empathy I could borrow To put at an ease my annihilated soul To try to mend all the gaping holes I used to wish upon the stars For a day to come When I could show, Who I am Guess what? From the inside a Tiger From the outside a Lamb In this gamble of fate I was damned
No one knew of my troubles No one knew of my pains Got a full stop rather an exclamation mark Over my gains Though despite all this "I love you all" I hope that " You love me too" Let go of all the false perceptions Let's understand each other Let's begin this new inception Let me be treated as an equal Not as an exception Maybe you should learn a bit of adaptation Learn to love people for who they are Rather judging and offering to them Your blunt neglection Rather shower them With your affection