You are everywhere. You are the contradicting thoughts in my head that consume me. You are my nightmares and my daydreams. But I beat you when I found the courage to help others fight their demons. Still I know you will be back. I know that you never really left. Most days I am afraid to wake up. When the weight of the world is on your chest its usually easier to stay in bed. People I know just assume that I am sleepy, but thats just the tip of the iceberg, my depresson is my bed, its in my smile,its in my laugh, its not separated from me.