Lying Eyes

Is it that I see through misleading eyes
Or is it my hope that made it seem real
Did you, do you even like me or care
Why can't I feel how you feel
With each passing sunset I want you more
With every rising sun I fall deeper for you
I want you to know, to feel, what I feel
Would it make a difference if you even knew
You came along in such trying times in my life
You gave me what I lacked in strength
But all I can give you is my heart and a promise
To stand beside you and be faithful everyday
Confusion is settling..I'm getting in my head
Am I blind, overthinking or dumb
When we are together, car store or bed
You feel distant... Do I make you numb
I want to be your reason to smile randomly
I want to be the one to kiss your pains away
I want and need to feel your hands touch my skin
I want and I need you everyday in every way
You show such faint clarity of emotion
I feel Im just here till you decide to go
In the beginning the idea of lisa was wonderful
But it's like now you just don't know
Was it just a dream I was dreaming that you wanted us
Did I just imagine the way you would look over at me
Am I now just a new burden in your life
I can't feel you, I just don't know what I see
Do you like it when I kiss you
Do you ever want to feel my touch
Can you see us 10 years down the road
Or am I and my life just too much
I'm a fool for falling so quickly I Know
It's definitely something I didn't expect
But you made it so easy by just being you
What is it that you're wanting to do next
Ill never be perfect and many things I can't change
But my life won't always be such a mess
I'm honest, loyal, and have so much love to give
I make mistakes but always give my best
I know I could love you for all the rest of our years
My only doubt is my doubt on how you feel
Is it that I saw through misleading eyes
Is this a hope in my heart or is it real
© lisastewart