I Seek You My Child

I seek you my child
Lost in me now
I seek your innocent smiles
Your plaintive eyes
Asking for my love
Asking to play with you
To be around you
To look at you
With all my attention
To talk to you
And let you talk to me
As much as you liked
And not hurry you
To do something else
To take you around
Among your friends
Like other mamas did
To not be harsh on you
Your crying fits, your tempers
Your troubling me and only me
Your forever refusal
To call me your best friend
Your forever crying out for my love
Your mama who I could not be
I could not save you from myself
I could not save you from unkind people
Whom you had to entertain constantly
So they wouldn’t beat you up
But condescend to play with you
You whose mama was never there
Who was always lost in her own world
Who wanted to forget that you existed
Who felt bored around you
Who just couldn’t love you
Come back to me my child
I want to make you my baby again
Save you from the world and me
This time I promise I won’t be harsh
I will talk to you and listen to you
I will play with you and hug you too
I will always be around you when you play
With your friends who won’t trouble you then
I want to love you and never let you out of my sight
No I will not run away from you
Nor will I ask you to go out and play to sort yourself out
I will come with you and we will sort ourselves together
My child I do love you.
©smitananda