• passionfruit777 9w

    All I know is pain...

    My soul is screaming in pain but I make sure u won't know...i wish not to be to end the suffering but by doing that I will leave all my pain behind to spread in my loved ones like a contagious disease. So I carry on smiling I carry on fighting I carry on putting the the best show... Hoping one day this feeling go away the constant anxiety constant pain...fire in my bones I feel like I am burning alive...all I do is hurt if it's not myself..i hurt you not consciously..And the circle never ends...feels like no matter what I do or what decision I make it will hurt eighter way..i wish I could fix it..god only know how much..what is wrong with me Why can't just stop..i am tired tired of fighting.. Fighting for others because isn't fair to be loved and hurt in return ...so I am fighting, fighting to stay alive...but this life isn't worth it when all i dream of is end ...if only i couldd speak up tell you how i feel if only i could scream on the top of my voice....but I can't because it would only spread my pain to pure hearts thats around me I couldn't bear it its because I love so much blindly I have to protect you from the demons that already owned my soul ...so i sit here shattered putting up front so you can say...i wish I was you...
    ©passionfruit777