When he's away...
At first it's just this small dull ache that you ignore, but slowly it creeps up on you, like a disease that's spreading all over you, consuming you.
The dull ache inside me grows big.
It turns into a black hole of pain.
It's like the life is sucked out of me.
No matter how much I try to make myself believe that him leaving doesn't bother me,
it still doesn't stop the tears from falling.
It doesn't stop me from waking up in the middle of the night missing him.
It doesn't help me fall asleep with out his voice.
I never realized how much I loved him until the moment he wasn't with me.