• jegedejoansinmi 10w

    Insonmia: The Nightmare that keeps me awake

    The time I dread the most is when I hop into bed
    That is when the tormenting begins
    The Nightmare that threatens my sanity
    All I want is a good and well deserved rest
    But night time has turned to my darkest time
    It's 12am and I'm still awake

    Tell me how do I sleep with these silent but loud voices
    Tell me how do I forget these silent voices
    Tell me how do I find peace for these silent voices
    The same silent voices that has become my nightmare
    The nightmare that keeps me awake
    It's 1am and I'm still awake

    Let me tell you about these silent but loud voices
    The ones I hear clearly every night
    One silent voice begging please don't shoot me
    Another silent voice screaming I can't breathe
    Another silent voice crying please don't shoot me
    Another silent voice shouting I did nothing wrong
    A little silent voice pleading it's a fake gun
    It's 2am and I'm still awake

    The scariest of all voices the one the one that is crying so painfully and loudly
    Please don't rape me
    The one that is not talking at all but I can still hear it
    The one that is sleeping but won't let me sleep
    The seven year old voice that produces no sound but is still been heard
    It's 3am and I'm wide awake

    How do I explain to you
    The seven year old that will never wake
    The twelve year old that will never play
    The sixteen year old with a dream that would never dream
    The twenty two year old that will never read
    The twenty five year old that will never jog
    The twenty six year old that will forever sleep
    The forty six year old that will never breathe
    It's 4am and these thoughts still plague me

    Twisting and turning, turning and twisting
    Everytime I find solitude the nightmares find me
    How do I sleep when their stories fill my head
    How do I sleep when their cries fill my head
    How do I sleep when their pains fill my chest
    This is the nightmare that plagues even when I'm not asleep
    It's 5am and I'm still awake

    I am plagued enough to become a poet
    For it is in these words I explain my sickness
    As l lay in bed I do not fail to think
    Those voices could have been mine
    Those voices that will never speak but will be heard
    Those voices that will cry with no tears
    It's 6am and I haven't slept

    How do I tell my mind to find peace
    How do I tell my mind to erase their screams
    How do I tell my mind to forget their pleas
    How do I tell my mind to forget the scene
    The scream the pleas and scene that plagues my peace
    This nightmare that keeps me wide awake






    ©jegedejoansinmi