Maybe, I look for you because I am feeling alone.
When I'm with you, I feel I am strong and special.
That I do not have to be belonged because I already belonged where I want to be belonged and I am already belonged to you.
But what's feeling I hate the most when I am with you is when I get hurt because of your treatment to me and the sadness it brings to me.
Like when I think about it carefully, I do not know already where do I really belong because when I'm with you, you also makes me feel sad.
The sadness of being alone when I am without you and the sadness you bring when I am with you.
Is this really true? Am I really into someone who does nothing but to hurt me?