Ever wish you could disappear?
I do, I wish I could disappear
Ever wish someone would understand you?
I do, I wish someone would understand me
Ever wish you could stop fake smiling?
I do, I wish I could stop with all the fake smiles
Ever wish you knew what was wrong with you?
I do, I wish I knew exactly what is wrong with me
Ever wish you could describe the way you feel?
I do, I wish I knew just how I felt
Ever wish that you could be enough?
You already know, you know I wish I could be enough
But I never will, will I?
I close my eyes and exhale a sharp breath of air
Hoping to dismiss the heartache
Hoping to make it all, disappear
Humans make you prey
They make you prey in their survival of the fittest expedition
They twist you inside out
They try to destroy you
They try to douse the fire that burns within you
And at times you think they’ve already won
Because they make you their pawn
They make you a pawn in whatever sickly game they play in their twisted brains
And if they got the chance to break your character
You’d be gasping
On your last breath
Holding on dearly to life
Trying not to disappear
People will think they know
know the situations you’re in and they’ll laugh
They assume they know your life story, so they judge
They’ll laugh because you weren’t raised like they were
They’ll judge because you don’t look like they do
They don’t think like you do
They weren’t taught like you were
They don’t feel like you do
They don’t try to understand who you are
And sometimes I wish
I hope they would disappear
When you live in a world as corrupt as this
You’re bound to find people who make others feel like shit
They make others feel like crap because they feel like crap too
Because they cannot love themselves
And no one has ever loved them back
When you live in a world as fucked up as this
You’re bound to drown
You’re bound to lose who you are
You’re bound to lose yourself
You’re bound to be depressed
You’re bound to be unreachable
You’re bound to disappear
If you thought this was going to be motivational
Sometimes you just need to talk about your problems
Before you can resolve them
Especially when you try to explain how you feel
But they say it’s just a phase
You try to speak your mind
But they shut you down
And even when you say nothing
They tell you that you’re worth nothing
What do you do when you’re broken and tired?
What do you do when you’re tired of trying?
Tired of trying to please everyone but yourself?
How do you cope in a world of ignorance?
How do you cope when no one will listen?
What do you do when the world doesn’t care?
And what do you do with yourself, a self that is not there?
It’s simple: You disappear
Love yourself they say
Funny enough, that is my ‘forever struggle’
And it’s just something that I cannot do ‘til this day
I look at my reflection and I ask,
“How do I love a self that is so broken and bruised?”
‘See the pain on her face,’ the voices say
‘With expressions like that she’s bound to always lose her way’
‘Why is she so weird?’ the others yell out
‘Her life is a mess!’
‘Just tell her get out’
‘Tell her to Disappear!’