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    Rusted Heart

    I sank down to the ground
    in utter despair,
    Catching a small hint
    of your breath in the air,
    Wishing for just a moment
    that life could be merciful and fair.
    I hold onto the scars that remain
    because that's all I can bear to
    keep after we were over.
    I kept the wounds open just to hurt.
    I shut off the blood to my heart
    which was full of us - we and each other.
    Which was so full of the love
    that has become empathy -
    The empathy that I feel is imaginary,
    with your promises
    that tasted like tears and whiskey,
    running through my arteries,
    and disappearing
    into an ocean of wounds and gore.
    I am neither alive nor dead.
    No corner of emotions left to pry.
    No fear - no joy,
    Not even tears left to cry.
    Embodied with empty memories,
    I can’t seem to find a remedy
    for all the sins
    I’ve been committing
    NOR for all the lies
    you’ve been spitting.
    As if these were light casualties
    and this is our destiny ;
    We had love but it went away,
    Yet, what could have been -
    wasn’t meant to stay.
    I am tired.
    Drained.
    Weary.
    and
    Exhausted.
    I’ve no more guts
    to walk through the forlorn fog.
    I wish my heart was big enough
    to contain this endless pain,
    [ forgetting that not many wish
    are meant to come true ],
    Therefore,
    I curled up inside
    like paper burning.
    Ashes to ashes,
    dust to dust,
    My heart of gold 
    has turned to rust...

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    Rusted Heart

    I’ve no more guts
    to walk through
    the forlorn fog,
    Therefore,
    I curled up inside
    like paper burning.
    Ashes to ashes,
    dust to dust,
    My heart of gold 
    has turned
    to rust...
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