I wish i could tell you
how your departure left
a permanent mark of
not trusting anyone again
I wish i could tell you
how you your touch still
lingers on my body and
everyday i try to scrub it of
and i hate it how i think of
you touching another girl just
like the way you touched me.
I wish i could tell you how I
still remember your smile
and it warms my heart.
I wish i could tell you how i search
for you in crowded streets and my
hands itching to hold yours.
I wish i could tell you how i
run back again and again to our
favourite spot near that lake
and find bits and pieces of our
love lying there and how i see
flashback of our fights and search
for that one sign where you behaved
like you were slipping away.
I wish i could i tell you how december
nights reminds me of our cozy moments
soaking up the christmas vibes under
the blankets and jamming to justin's mistletoe.
I wish i could tell you how much i miss
you and how these memories are a
constant reminder of your absence
and that the pain never goes away
and how departures are hard to accept.
I wish i could tell you how much
it hurts me to see you living without me
like i never existed in your life and
you never really loved me.

#mirakee #scribbles #musings