• shreya_naki 27w

    When i told you ,
    " Everyone that i accept to love, leaves me..",
    I didn't know you'd take me so damn seriously.

    Three days. It's been three days since your last call, text , email or voice .
    The double tick on WhatsApp doesn't turn blue anymore ..there's no more 'typing...' on your whatsapp contact , howsoever long i stare at it.
    The feeling is gradually sinking in now but I don't want it to. My trance like state is experiencing a dent but I do not want to hit reality.

    You left me within a year of me having found my best mate and within 2 months of me accepting 'our love'.
    On the 14th of February, you confessed your love for me , on the 13th of August I confessed mine.

    A month later,on the 13th of September, you left for your usual foreign work trip. Ten days later, you had fever and how I kept on insisting you to get the tests done.

    I still remember how tightly you had clasped my hand for three hours straight at the hospital bed.. I knew you were scared. I wasn't. I didn't have the nerves to barely imagine what could go wrong. So, I simply held your hand and smiled . Then I felt that grip loosen until it was only my hand that had power to grasp. I sensed you slip away .. Despite our best efforts, you slipped off.

    I didn't want to give up on you. For ten hours, I sat beside your cold, senseless body ,in the hope of a tiny little movement. You didn't budge a bit.

    You were diagnosed with Dengue. How was it that we didn't know ? Why am I a Doctor when I couldn't help you?

    They've been trying to console me that you will fade away into nothingness with time..

    Three days today, without you.

    Why did you take it so seriously? You told me you wouldn't leave. What do I do with the perfumes you got me this time? I wish I'd recorded more of your voice calls... ln fact, all of them!
    "Rock the exam, doc! I love you! See you soon!!" , These were your last words to me. You rocked my entire living !!
    How do I preserve the smell that your t-shirt holds? How do I accept that you've left but still try to keep you?
    I lost my bestest friend, my lover, my past and my future, all at once.
    The PRESENT now twists my heart all the time.

    When i told you ,
    " Everyone that i accept to love, leaves me..",
    I didn't know you'd take me so damn seriously.

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    When i told you ,
    " Everyone that i accept to love, leaves me..",
    I didn't know you'd take me so damn seriously.

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