You could feel deprivation pounding on the inside of your chest this year. The only way to diminish it was through gratitude. Gratitude for all that you have. Gratitude brought you closer to your purpose. Your purpose to serve others in any way you can, in every way you can. You made a choice to always be light. You chose that your life would be about giving to others, about caring for others, about healing others. You will work hard so that maybe in a hundred years from now when your body is ashes you left this world a little bit better off.