Rolling

Rolling deep amidst broken waters
Feeling lonely and deprived
Can see us parting peacefully
The void is sudden and severe
Like a tailor bird hopping to death
Or a crimson sky turning red
Your words used to heal my inner substance
I was thus consumed in being happy
How the years have rolled by
And your soul in my heart has gone
Forever now dreaming of dark twinkling stars
You stand in the way of my laughter
As if by happenstance
I feel cringed and tired
From sensing your luminescent smell again
I am curious of nothing except my aged condition
Forlorn and bruised just as Jewish diaspora
I have forgotten numbness and disorder
An idiot of my own ego and self esteem
My tears roll down all the way to my feet
I can touch their dryness,their soul
Frigid in the darkness that awaits me
I can hear thunder claps and lightning ghouls
Your love was too near yet too far for me
Can no longer smell the devil's cove
Twisted and tormented by temperature and reason
Seems the rolling will last forever
My life now a serpent's den
Fragile and frivolous without love or purpose
Your cries have uprooted my soul
Where is the tip of the wave
Is it as far away as the stars
I must write to knock on the doors of life again
Must forsake vanity and squander
Creating a door of simplicity and veracity
Contented in the moments that God has painted
A state of peace and nonchalance
Resting my soul now in time of the calm waves
Beating down on my life's shore.
My myself being long and sticky
Being as ignorant as a honeybee
And as sweet as humane.

@siddharthajana