Sometimes i wonder why i'm alive
Why am i alive suffering when i can be peacefully dead. I've created this distain for life but i know i will never take my own. But i know i won't be missed. But i don't want to be the cause of my own death. So i hope one day something bad happens to me. Something that would cause me to get seriously hurt. Or possibly even die. Because at this point i have nothing to live for. Why would i want to live when existance its self is pain to me.