9 days free of the chains that bound me.
9 days of constantly trying to move on and quit.
9 days since I put the weapon down and turned my head.
9 days of a relentless struggle that keeps wanting.
9 days of wanting to give in to this urge.
9 days of feeling weaker rather than stronger.
9 days that seem to go on for forever.
9 days of constantly keeping myself in check.
9 days will soon be 10 if I don't give in...
9 days...oh how this is just a useless battle.