• hiyasays 23w

    Go away

    Am I really the only one that has their
    demons feasting upon their very soul?
    They say it is easy to tie a noose around
    your mind and imagination..
    And to overcome the urges and
    temptations of ending your life in a jiffy...
    They don't know the true pain and torment
    that is going on inside my heart and mind..
    A battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
    "End it already" they say, as they prey
    on me during my weakest, darkest hours
    Sometimes I want to give into the voices,
    carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
    Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful
    words that keeps me going "I am stronger!!"
    Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate
    with a desire to say that God loves me
    I try to convince myself that
    God is trying to test my faith
    And to just wait and wait
    Then my Demons will one day
    eventually go AWAY.....