As a child, I feared to get out of my room at night. I'd fear monsters live under my bed and will eat me if I stepped out of my blanket. But those are bygone. I learnt science and I was convinced darkness is merely absence of protons. But now, as I am 18, this darkness seem scarier than it did as a six years old me. Back then I could ask my mom to get me a glass of water. But what do I do now? Now, all the monsters inside my head take the charge of my thoughts. How do I tell my mom now to fetch me some water when I'm sobbing, trying to cover the sobs under my pillow?