I am afraid of the shadow
And it is free as the wind
On a lonely night
I am scared of the sound of it
Reminding me of terror heard and seen
A forceful hand on my face
Frightening me to death
It was a mistake to step outside at night
Or a blunder to be born a female child
I run for my breath, I run for my life
All the devotions and deeds lost in vain
I can't imagine it ending right,
My soul trembles
And vision blurred
But my scream is muffled
And silence smears
I can't escape
Now my corse is ruined
I am thrashed and shamed
I throw my limbs and try one last time
I search for a soul in this monster at sight
I shiver and sigh
Whispering some prayer
Some miracle to happen tonight
I defend my spirit
I don't want to be burned alive
My mind desolated
And not a human, it's a demon
For the sin he is about to commence
How hard it is to see
I am living and not a piece of meat?
I would want to be forgotten after this;
A witness and a victim,
Forbidden a normal life and health
Stuck in this morbid state
I don't understand; What was my mistake?
What I did wrong?
What I didn't comprehend?
Was it a wrong time or place?
Or my body or feminine face?
And the nightmares after this
Sobbing and whimpering on my bed
Afraid to face the mirror in shame
And the stares and glares of every other Men
I don't want sympathy, I have had enough of that
I don't require your comment or facade
Or anything to remind me of that terrible past
I want justice, I need it now
My only therapy, last of demand
The episode is hidden in my brain somewhere
And the culprit would never realise how I suffered
Every day is a challenge, a reminder
Of something terrible, something unnatural.