Jehovah is my mind's keeper
When breath was almost jerked out of me
Because of severe anxiety from trouble
His word came to me
To lighten out my burden.
I want to tell You my truth
I want to tell You I am imperfect
I have a pride that makes me not want to need You
I would rather gasp for breath
And pull my strength from the earth
Then tell You I need Your help.
I'm sorry I undermined the value of You.
I was with You but mostly just alone
And I failed You when I wanted to take down ten thousand alone.
Because I wouldn't want You to take the glory
I thought I could claim it with the praises sang at the gate.
I hope that this would be taken in good faith
So that I can be the version of me I really want to be with You.