I dont claim to be strong or calm,
Nor do i want to cause any harm.
Not to myself or others or anything else,
Its why im medicated from a pharmacy shelf.
I get twisted thoughts trapped inside my head,
Saying to kill myself and im better off dead.
Life has been hard away from drugs and drink,
My brain goes too fast i dont get time to think.
Everything busy and no way of slowing down,
My only escape was to get high or drown.
Now 6 and half years iv been clean,
Only taking medication and smoking green.
MDMA and shrooms are a rare treat,
no cocaine or alcohol still between my feet.
Still i question if im better or not, or am i stuck with one last shot......?