This Was Not Us
Stood up and opened up eyes,
All over my vision..there was emptiness and lies.
I felt someone beside,
Like a dream..it was gone the other nights.
Promises of eternity,
Couldn't keep them in life.
Being a sober..you're my only addiction,
The space then filled in different directions.
Asked you..if I'm boredom,
Replied thinking me a perfect dumb.
We never were on same page,
Just because of your rage.
You went through a very phase,
Me sobbing there was complete disgrace.
And then..tenderness shifted to denials,
Led out paths to making us the worst desires.