• nakupenda 10w

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    ...Just Scars...

    There not just
    Scars
    Once healed the
    Pain is gone
    You’re tougher
    Is that so?
    No
    They’re not just
    Scars
    They are those
    Demons you
    Deny exist the
    Ones that come
    To call
    When it’s 3 am
    They know you’re
    All alone
    As you mind
    Traces every
    Single time I’ve
    Fought just to
    Stay alive
    Tears running
    Down my face
    Reminding myself
    I’m not going to
    Keep letting them
    Win
    They are my
    insecurities the
    Ones you clearly
    Don’t have
    When you look
    Into that mirror
    Trying to see
    Beauty
    Mine was
    Stollen as child
    My deepest fears
    They are every
    One of my most
    lonely nights
    Where no one was
    Near I’ve been
    Alone all my life
    They are the insults
    The times I was told
    I was not
    Enough
    If I was
    thinner
    Prettier
    Smarter
    If only I tried
    Harder made an
    Effort not let myself
    Go so much
    All those critical
    Unnecessary
    Bullshit people do
    To elevate themselves
    While they put every
    Down
    It’s all of the emotions
    The anger
    The tears
    The fear that they
    Might actually be
    Right
    I’m nothing to lose
    Emotions I can't contain
    They are a part of me
    The parts you found
    Too crazy
    Too outlandish
    Did you ask me why?
    What made me this way?
    Did you know every
    Time you said I love
    You I added on
    “Until when?”
    Holdning my breath
    I knew things would
    Be all my fault
    Understand this
    All those scars on
    My soul
    Put there by people
    For no reason
    Nothing I deserved
    Those scars that no
    One can see
    I keep them hidden
    Inside of the memories
    I can’t stop the
    Nightmare that is my
    Life
    I couldn’t stop them
    At the time the wounds
    We’re inflicted
    While you built
    your life
    Your career
    Made friends
    Grew successful
    I was surviving
    Do you know what
    That’s like to let the
    Damage be done
    I do
    So don’t love me
    Don’t be my friend
    Don’t blame me for
    The scars when I
    could
    Not stop them
    Just the same way
    I cannot stop or
    Change
    what I have become
    I’m alive
    Why the hell am I
    Alive when every
    Time I trust
    I die
    From the wounds
    That appear every
    Time I’m reminded
    I’m too much
    Yet I’m never
    enough
    I’ll hide behind a
    Smile
    Reply I’m fine
    Before I give anyone
    The opportunity
    To take the last part
    Of who I am
    I will survive you
    I’m a survivor
    That’s what I do
    Heal the wounds
    Trace every scar
    You know nothing
    About who I am
    I should have
    recognized you
    From the start

    ©mokrani

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