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    @my_cup_of_poetry Sakshi I ain't a liar but lazy and congratulations for that 25th July,2019 post :")

    To - A Despairing Love

    You said that I have an ego problem. You said that it wasn't love. And then I try to run away from you as there was no option left for me to stay. I threw the keys of my room. I switched off myself emotionally.Still I didn't get rid of all the anxiety that runs on my veins like rollarcoaster. Soon I realized that the actual problem was I ran on a circular track and I always ended up reaching to you.
    Funny right !?
    I put on my earphones in front of you but little did you know I have muted the audio as my ears were against anything that resists your voice to let in.
    I scratch the lines of my hand, I pulled my ears, I bang my head on walls. It wasn't the tap running in the bathroom, if I tell you, you would cry too.
    I barely had that kind of light left within me which used to pump me up and let me do everything I ever dreamt of. I need one more shot right at the centre so that the home we made once gets completely destroyed. I am running out of caffeine and time. I put my dignity naked on the floor and you walk barefoot on it as if you never gave a shit about it.
    It was the time I realized it was all toxic from the very start when it turned me blue. But I was too late. Too late to realize that other hands won't give me the same warmth. Too late to realize that I destroyed 'us'. But not too late to reconstruct it better than before. You have to understand this simple equation. No matter how much I try, I just can't unlove you. This trying has damaged me to the core and I have done making me suffer by both means.

    From - You know who I am.

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    ...I realized that the actual problem was I ran on a circular track and I always ended up reaching to you ...

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    - Rahul Saha
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