I Don’t Know

Everyday I see you I feel like something is missing
Whenever I kiss you, there’s no hint of what I once felt
I often question myself
Wondering out loud if I need help?
Because we’ve been together for 4 long years
There’s been tears, heartbreak, and so many fears
But I’m trying to keep holding on
Your so strong
But deep inside I know we are both wrong
Your constantly try to please me with gifts
But that doesn’t change how I feel
Would it be hard to let you go?
Or am I going to keep holding on to my heart you stole?
I’m wanting more than what you want
I’m a different ship and your out in front
I don’t know when I’ll be able to understand how I feel
All I know is that my feelings are real
You hate the way I think about breaking your heart
You don’t want to find anyone else you never start
I think of myself as toxic and completely messed up
People say your perfect and I am too
We are a match made in heaven
Which I don’t think we do
So I’m sitting here contemplating about what we are
I don’t want your kisses or your stubborn goodbyes all I wish is that I would stay and try
But everyday it feels like I want to die
You don’t like it when I meet new people
You try to get in the way and it’s unequal
That’s why sometimes I think you’ll never be apart of my sequel
©loverofthemoon_99