• feministconfessional 30w

    Howl into strong wind

    Howl into strong wind
    So nobody hears you
    Scream under loud music
    Because you shouldn’t be sad
    Sob in the shower
    Your sniffles will be stifled
    Turn your face away
    When your tears well up
    Bite your lip
    Hold yourself steady
    Keep quiet now
    Until the dam wall breaks
    Then let it all out
    And start over again
    There’s a good girl

    We are deaf to your needs
    Your pain is inaudible
    Our silence is pristine
    And multiplied
    An impenetrably thick
    Silent Wall of Sound
    Layers upon layers
    Of cooing concern
    Sucked up in a vacuum
    Murderously neglectful
    The silence we respond with
    Is cold
    And white
    And hard
    And pure
    We agree:
    You should not be heard
    We agree, en masse:
    Your emotions should be bypassed
    They are too much
    We look right through them
    Applaud your better feelings
    Your sunny side up
    Side-stepping
    Your strange dark currents
    Your pain
    It does not exist to us

    So bite your lip
    And hold yourself steady
    Keep quiet now
    Until the dam wall breaks
    Then let it all out
    And start over again
    Go on
    Go back up
    To the top of this page
    And start reading again
    Do as we say
    There’s a good girl

    ©melitalara