Every sleepless night if I count, I spit venom of your memories. Its been 3 years, 4 months and 21 days, since we got separated, I lost you and my very bestfriend in you and it hurts me more. I can't be strong all the time and sometimes I need to use this ink to bleed. I miss you. I really miss you so bad and I don't want to admit, but Iam still waiting for you even if it sounds dumb. You know what I love the most about you?. The answer will be same again, "Your innocent smile". I miss the way you cared and pampered the kid in me. I miss being loved that way. I miss the feeling of loving someone that way. I miss the way you held me tighter whenever I tried to escape or leave. I don't know whose fault it was, MINE or YOURS?!. Or it was the misunderstanding that drifted us apart?!.
But can we just forget all this and can we please just keep the only fact in our mind that we both love each other unconditionally and in the dumbest way? I know its impossible and it sounds much like a daydream, but still praying that this dream may come true one day indeed. I don't know why even after ages of loosing you, my heart still skips a beat whenever I listen your name my childhood sweetheart. I know I could have prevented all those mishappenings that happened between us and could have saved you from all the damage I gave you. This guilt kills me you know. But only one thing I can say, I did everything unintentionally and without my mere conscience. I never wanted to hurt you. You know I love you, I know you love me. But the ego in our heart has poisoned our minds and heart. It broke the bond. You are the only strength of mine that can make me weak. Can you please just comeback like that happens in a fairytale?