You can cry but u can't die, u can't be finished this way. U were not made for a bad conclusion. U have to be a story teller, u have to inspire peoples, but u know the famous quote : "No one will listen or believe in your stories if you are not winning . So win first. " Maybe at that circumstance u don't have enough courage, don't have a single friend, don't have peoples who will help u out, then u have to accept that God didn't made u for these things, a peaceful sleep . You should keep your trust on your only friend after yourself ie. your Lord.