It's not difficult to understand my behaviour, honestly, I am a docile heart and interestingly calling myself docile makes me prone to suffering in our mindsets. That a docile heart is probable to bear suffering in it's age.
I have developed an awareness that I should be getting less hence whatever I have stumbled upon in my life has felt like a gifted blessing, but that shouldn't be attached with the idea of submission, I took full charge of whatever was showered in my life, to admit, I have been concious about the power in control and privilege. I wish I had understood the relief in acceptance before I exercised the courtesy of apologising.
I honour those who have functioned on a sad heart, the sounding comfort in the arms of people who have been hugging trauma as a way of living with it. I feel bad to admit that comfort makes me think of my mother, alone.
I feel men are uncomfortable. I wish a docile heart in every men. I want them to be grateful not possessive. I want men to notice that there is a choice between decency and dominance. I would somehow easily believe that a single mother can raise a kid better than a male dominated parenting.
The love I was nurtured with was kneaded by a woman who had to request a lot, a woman who had to seek permissions, a woman who was beautifully creative in kitchen but failed to gather her kids together on a single dining table. That dismissing my mother was easy.
I like the idea of befriending a man who names his adopted puppy,Hurt and loves it wholeheartedly. I want to be sharing at a support group. I hope reuniting with my father in a soft future. ~S
She wears Constellations On her sleeves . Stardust Spangled hair . Moonbeams Reflect her Aura , She's a Woman beyond Compare .
She's the vast Cerulean sky , She's the Enigmatic ocean's Ultramarine hues . She's the one Who nurtures Life inside , Her precious Womb .
She's ... Fierce . Loyal . Resilient , And pure Eternal love . She's all Shades of The rainbow , That shines Resplendently Above .
Content info courtesy Google . Blue is the color of the sky and sea. It is often associated with depth and stability. It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom, confidence, intelligence, faith, truth, and heaven.