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  • psipher 3d

    From the song BAARISHEIN by Anuv Jain♥️
    Lol i am back in case i have any readers left😂
    @arborvitae @raika @pen_and_paper

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    Teri aankhon ka kajal na failey ab kabhi bhi
    Tujhe itna pyaar doon
    ~Anuv Jain

  • psipher 33w

    Sometimes music with foreign words, indecipherable,
    lets your heart decide what you want them to mean.
    ~psipher

  • psipher 41w

    LETTER TO MY RAPIST-3

    Dear brother,
    I woke up this morning again with you on my mind, missing you. Why? I'm addicted to the pain you've caused to the extent everytime I miss you, those 7 years of my childhood, I cut. Is it not better to bleed than to suffer from your hands? People ask me the reason for being depressed soul. They don't know me, do they? Ain't I the most vibrant, cheerful, happy girl you've ever seen? Tell them, I can't smile everytime I talk about you, or to you. The triggers you've set in my body like dynamites, wait to blow up as soon as they encounter a touch, have already charred the most of me. How? You were not the last one, but the first one indeed. I never got an elder brother in you, in whom I could confide when my teacher wanted to do the same, or when that guy on bike touched me, or when that friend of mine expressed his wish to sleep with me. You were never a brother. You broke your promise, remember? You said me, if anyone would touch me, except you, you'll kill him. You didn't. They touched and went. Someone asked me the reason for not being a prostitute. Do you remember telling me how I slept on your shoulders? Do you remember picking me up in your arms? Do you remember telling me to dance? Do you remember crying because I grew up? Do you remember the last time I called? You failed me. You didn't recognise me. All I wanted to ask you was - why? It turns out, the dungeons in which you forced me into have been into oblivion as much as you've been into me, those days. I screamed, but they were music to your ears. This morning I read the rapists killing the victim. Why did you leave me alive? Afterall, we share the same relation now. If you loved me, as you said you did, why did you let me breathe after choking me? You must have had me killed.
    Yours (never) truly,
    Psipher

  • psipher 41w

    LETTER TO MY RAPIST-2

    Dear brother,
    Today again your thoughts trickled down the less travelled path. No not that I complain, but I wonder how brilliantly you've made every word a memorabilia of how you touched, making me want to blur all those captured glimpses in my budding adolescence. It's funny how I've always been a victim, partly a survivor and hardly a fighter. I am fascinated whenever I look back at my sexual assault history, because I could have earned some bucks from the services I offered my molesters, unwillingly, unknowingly. Downhill is an easy journey, and you've been a catalyst to that, making me a breathing carcass in no time. They ask me if the reason for never stopping you was that I enjoyed the struggle I went through everytime you hid us in cupboards, making me sit on your lap. I never slept when you lifted my skirt, lowered my jeans, kept your hands on my chest, or pressed your lips against mine. I didn't know how to say you no. Maybe saying this two lettered word I learnt in kindergarten, is not easy. You made me strong, for I don't fear darkness any longer, because that's where I've been the most. I cut myself, and I realise my blood's not blue yet, but my skin is. I'm sorry I couldn't be a good prostitute. But you rip off the happiness of the guy I love, for I'm never able to take his jokes lightly. I wish I could deliver you this letter, but I'm not as brave as you're. I can't call you, for you fail to recognise me after charring my identity. I'm sorry for growing up. I wish I could get the warmth of an elder brother.
    Yours (not yours) truly,
    Psipher

  • psipher 49w

    Being at a distance, is vulnerable; being too close, makes you blur.

    ~psipher

  • psipher 51w

    I'm suffused with hurt when someone says what I wanted to hear from you.

    ©psipher

  • psipher 51w

    Death is nothing but peace veiled and monotony is just inertia at pace.

    ©psipher

  • psipher 51w

    If losing a loved one is tough and heart wrenching, leaving them too is difficult. But when you're hurt, you're. And you can do nothing about it.
    #pod #writersnetwork #readwriteunite #mirakee #ceesreposts @lotuseateronthewalk @arborvitae @saishankar @mismagical @john_solomon

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    It's not easy walking away,
    but it's too difficult to stay.

    ©Psipher

  • psipher 82w

    Yeah?
    You're beautiful. You all.
    P.S. The last two lines are from a song.

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    Oh, the throne of beauty:
    don't fear throw from beau tie,
    for thorn has its own beat.
    Don't settle for the pace
    where you still battle for peace;
    as petal is your piece.
    No, not the least you deserve,
    you've feast reserved,
    just keep your beauty beast preserved.
    Soon will this crooked world
    follow your word brooked,
    for you be the bird of pretty brood.
    Oh smile, you: lady,
    for you don't have to change a thing,
    the world can change its heart!

    ©psipher

  • psipher 84w

    Sorry for not being a constant reader and for not being able to reply to comments. Promise, I’ll soon do it all, just some time I need to grow. :)

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    Khud zakham ko khroch kis marham ki talash mein ho?
    Khud hayat ko sifar bna kis k khayalat mein ho?

    ~psipher