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  • rage_infine 2w

    For Love to endure the pain is the price of happiness
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  • rage_infine 2w

    Itachi Uchiha

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    Man cries not because he is weak, but because he was strong for too long.

  • rage_infine 4w

    I wonder, the path I travelled was right. When I got options, I always selected the path with happy moments and good vibes, but in the end of the path, always remain spirit of loneliness, hatred, regret and sorrow. I wonder If I would have selected another path. Now, that I know the value of certain person, who I admire so much, would I had been able to have same value If I would have selected another path? Love I got, value I discovered of myself and the people who like my existence, all remains in the path I have lived.

    There's a hope I got from myself, that If I am sad or alone, it's not the end of the path... Just keep walking with petience and I will surely found a companion. But I must have to release the past. It's hard but, is the way of living.


    WITH PAIN COMES SORROW, WHICH SOW THE SEED OF HATRED. THE ONLY WAY TO SURVIVE IS FORGIVENESS. LIVE UPTO IT.
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  • rage_infine 5w

    This is just a writup, nothing personal.

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    Fear of loneliness

    My fear lies in myself, which, in recent has occupied me. The feeling which makes me feel not very good. It's all like dying everyday, hearing the screams inside the head, very loud and sharp. The fear worst than nightmare.

    Every night, mask of smile face wores off. And the real face of loneliness comes with tears, and depression. Sleepless night with the tears of regret and feel of guilt, becomes the cloud over my head and hit's with the drops of memories, which make the pain more unbearable. It's all like trapped in the illusion, where no way is seen to go out.

    Only thing to think is that the suffering would go away soon. Only three ways are to be seen this time. One is to face the phase with truth and pain and then conquere that fear, second is to become a monster and change yourself in that way when you care for no one. And the people who cannot do these two thing try the third one, which is to end themselves to get free from the guilt and regrets they contained. That's where the loneliness can take a person to, only a person who suffers it daily and still hide it with a smile, can fight with loneliness.
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  • rage_infine 5w

    Exorcist room

    And I goes back to that place, beneath the light of the full moon, when the dark places get more wicked and haunted by evil. I had spent my most sleepless nights, scaring these white moon waves over me. That desserted room where traces of screams echos in me. Who knows, the place where spirits are taken, is the place spirits lies the most. I was fool to enter that room, without knowing it's an abandoned place, where no villager is allowed to enter. And as I entered, I was being captured by the dark. My heart was peirced with the icy-cold blade. So much pain, I suffered that night.
    Today, as the wind is blowing moderately, the night is a noisy one, but I am again standing in the front of that desserted room and no one is there to stop me. That wind, the white moon light, the stars, and the place, and I am trapped in the illusion again and gonna be stabbed again, where no one is to help me. I am all alone, now for I am sure not.
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  • rage_infine 6w

    See the fireflies, of the night so cold, flying like twinkling creatures. Wonder where they would head to, after the graves being opened. Do they cry, or they fear, the way they fly, I hope they journey to the peace land. They are said to be the soul of the people gone away, and their soul search for the place to rest.
    I see my fireflies are finding the place to settle down in peace, but seeing someone dying inside, bring disaster to mine land, and sure it can't be help as we have different boundaries. I just see all the troubles the fireflies of yours be in, the winds, the typhoons, all just hit directly... Still you have the will to live. And I just rely on that will of your's as my peace to have on.
    Hope the fireflies of the grave finds peace.
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  • rage_infine 6w

    Loneliness is something hard to define but everyone once in their life have lived in. It's the emotion at the state when we expect someone to help us through it. And the feeling a person feel while being in loneliness is what other's say- sweet pain. For me It's like shadows get alive and jam my mind to think negative and vast things.

    Being in state of loneliness gives birth to fear, hatred and spirit of vangeance. Loneliness comes through the person's own choice. Even if you are not loved by other's near you, just never give up to get their attention towards you. One day they all will notice good in you, and you will never be alone again.

    What it feels like, at it's best level is not less than haunted. When I suffered from loneliness, anxieties, depression and suciadal thoughts covered my mind. My every word, every thought and every emotion was all about being dead one day. And I always begged for help from God to make things right, but I used to have my choice to be aside of other's. But one day, Someone came into my life, someone who killed the monster of loneliness in me. And now that person is always with me, and will be with me... Till the end.
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  • rage_infine 6w

    It will get better

    This post, I don't actually give credit to myself for this. It was something that I learnt.

    Something's just going bad for me. And nowadays, I am just living something else. It's something that's a big deal for me, kind of weight of responsibilities, and to stand on expectations at same time, while both just oppose each other in my case.
    Many just say me why do I just keep doing this, why don't I leave one of the thing among those two, and I am speechless that time, I don't know what to say. But today, same question was asked by someone who I trust the most, my teacher, my life guide. Well, I thought for a while, and I got the answer, that
    Whatever I do, wether it's my studies, my work or my passtimes, there's always a way of mine to help the people who rely on me, or be with those who count on me. And remembered something I saw

    "It has to get better, the way we take care of each other, there's nothing we're gonna be back of all, It will get better"
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  • rage_infine 6w

    A good friend knows all your happiness and have seen your best days. But a special friend is the one who saw all your tears and griefs.
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  • rage_infine 6w

    A Monster

    Once, I used to see everything to have meaning with. To learn from all odds and evens. I counted every day of mine as a moment of my precious life. My mind was a book, that's what someone said. And now,
    I can't withstand the drastic change within myself. I can't think anything. Neither good, neither bad, just being in a state to ignore others and make myself ignore by others. As what I live normally now, makes other say that, I have become rude, person with no emotions, stone-hearted and hateful person. Now I don't get any ideas to write, any motivation to think.

    So, do I have become the book to be thrown away now, or I became so bad which no one would expect. Cause all I feel now is that, I am like a boy with the knife in my hands and blood all over my cloths, walking on the street surrounded by the people, who are staring at me with hatred and anger. I think that's what I am inside, A Monster.
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