It's time for us to relish the night It's time to walk the busy street The tempting glare hurts my eyes I see this city shining in luminous concrete. You hide inside those fancy cars Pouring champagne on the stains Skin glowing with expensive highlighter While opiates run through your veins. I'd act like I didn't see your smudged mascara But how would you escape your filtered lies The tears you shed after every fun night They never vanish but radiates under city lights. Trapped in the dillusional mirage Facade images reflecting on fake puddles But the aftershower won't wash your fears Rather illuminate the ways you masquerade. The lively road looks dull towards the end Few light streaks flickering it's way out Confused if it's myopia or mere loneliness, Or a blurry picture of shiny strange mess. You cry over smoke and make love under the purple stroke, Burn cigarettes to douse inner burns City lights hides loads of lies, Friends with knife and strangers with concerns. This road seams neverending taking me to new dimension The pretenders blinded by funds and bills, Stripping in gloom to shine in daylight Concealed persona under paper and pills. Building skyscrapers over the relicses You're just a naked figure I slowly reveal, The night invites evil and you're no sinner For I'm the priest who deals with the devil.
It's the darkest of hours when I wake up To meet you at my favourite spot Where the dead are alive and the time moves anticlockwise. It's the monochrome ambience that lures me When you paint my skin with garnet hue, Those poisonous kisses I've been thirsting for The sin and the curse,it's always been you. Maybe I'm a little too obsessed Maybe the evil conceal in the red. Or maybe it's my mind drowning in blood creating scarlett delusions of death. You tempt me with your vintage cologne The smell of those velvety nights Hang me up with some satin sheets Until my soul searches hell for invite. The chaos invites me while I seek for sanity And the the black lacy veil cover my deeds Remember the last salty drops that fell of my wrist I didn't cry that day but the sky that bleed.
Dear no one, I know how it feels. Drowning in your sorrows,escaping realities Finding happiness with anti-anxiety pills. Surviving darkness through the luminous moon Hanging yourself to death in lucid dreams, Yes you cry hiding behind those walls I still hear your silent screams. The scars that you embrace Creates verses to form it's own poetry, They bleed to fill in your empty voids But your mecabre thoughts won't allow you to break free. That pain is so familiar,so soothing you'd say Your complex traumas feels so simple to me You may be a freak with a lunatic mind Defeated by destiny,but a broken child I find. Those alluring eyes holds tons of secrets I could read only a few, That chaotic mind of yours, hasn't slept for years Counting miseries,looking through onyx hue. The gloom finds you You're a sinner,a gruesome nightmare, Spells been casted till you end up your life Deceived by kinsfolk,protest can't save you neither prayer. That faded smile tells a lot about you It's just to fit into those humans, I hear your aching heart and your fears Bound to the nemesis you're just a living corpse Trapped inside your head for years.
The photograph still hangs there Of us playing by the seashore, The waves chasing us till horizon Untill our tiny feet escapes for more. There's this park where we used to play all day The swings hanging empty and no one to balance the seesaws, Those children have disappeared Long past to a barren land,rejecting elation to abide the modern laws. Espousing the nemesis they've grown. The paperboats ended up in tunnels Blocking the vivid rays of innocence, Stygian shadows invades their mind Sedatives lulling them to do the devil's dance. Lost in the smoke of cannabis,we write tragic poetry Reminiscing defeats,embracing our trauma, Shattered dreams and broken hearts The long old pain is now a source of euphoria. Remember the tales of monsters The ones granny made up to scare us, Never thought they were real Untill I gave my heart to someone and got poisoned to death. Mama,your lullaby doesn't work anymore The voices inside my head,the regrets,the lies are too loud, Burning in the devastating inferno We've been searching for peace in this crowd. Catching fireflies in the woods was fun Untill I discovered demons crawling over my body, Dying a little more,cursing the fate I Find myself, O this world so lonely!
Monochromatic disaster burns down her soul When heavenly rays passes through that white beam, With all the country pop and retro mood She creates a radiant tangerine dream. Cosmic irises blooming through the divine land of creativity While the grey radio playes musical rhapsody to tame her wild spirit, Trapped in the naked white canvas She's an antique art painted in acrylic. Those eyes could create magic Crying the tears of stardust, Capturing vivid relics of a bygone era Her face so glossy while hands tinted with rust. Her intense gaze and vintage vibe Compliments her crimson curls, Coral lips singing disastrous lullabies While skin highlighted by vibgyor blush.
Hey you! Have we met before? You seem familiar. Aren't you the girl with the red bicycle! You'd ride through the alleys singing country songs It served for me as a hint of your arrival. You'd always enter the cafe wearing a bright smile A smile that would make earth a better place, I remember how you'd fix your hair strands falling out of your messy braid Starting from the cheekbones to the cute dimples showcasing every detail of your angelic face. You were a wildflower in this world full of expensive roses. You'd proceed to your ideal spot,the one beside the bookshelf. You'd wear a sheer top matching your ruffled skirt,you wouldn't mind even if it was covered with a little dust. Your eyes searching for a familiar face,and there you'd find me Ready to serve you your favourite frozen dessert. You never noticed me nor did I know your name but that smell of yours is enough to read you just like an old book,vintage and sharp. I remember the day you came without your bicycle,a frown replaced your smile That was the day I decided to give my heart to you,to confess how you helped me pursue my past, How I'd love to keep you safe in my arms for the rest of my life But that was the day I saw you last. I waited to capture that smile again To gaze at you while you search for me Only if I knew I would find you trapped in a photograph after all these years. A little girl looking just like you holding it and weeping You left your house that day to marry the guy you loved, While I waited for the new tommorow that might bring you to me. You began a new life and I started living with new hopes,a bit breaking each day. I glanced at your picture for one last time and asked her how you are, There she replied with a breaking voice 'this is my mom, I lost her last year'. My heart skipped a bit and tears rolled down my cheeks, only thing I know is that this admirer will keep loving you untill we finally meet. My biggest wish turned into a horrifying nightmare, I kissed your picture and bought your daughter your favourite frozen dessert as a last soveigner.
The universe helped me find you We are the embers from the same fire, I choose you in a hundred lifetimes To have you always by my side to cherish,protect and to admire. Open your heart out to me,show me your pain your agony, I could hear the noises when you cry For I can turn them into sweet symphony. Tell me your childhood secrets I'll be listening to you whole night, Tell me where it hurts the most I'd visit hell fighting over your demons only to capture your peaceful sight. Let me fill your voids with my aura I know your mysteries,insecurities and fears, The memories that still haunts you Trust me I'd make wine from your tears. I've seen the broken child hiding inside that beast,the one lost in my absence Only if you try to look inside my heart But darling,you won't find any difference. We are all some broken pieces in search of the right fix. I find peace within your chaos and trust behind those little white lies, Your stubborness and rage is what keeps me sane I can see the phoenix rising from those teary eyes. My soul craves this forbidden amour I'd escape us from every shallow and storm, We are the twin flames,the soulmates for eternity I'm only a gypsy wanderer till I find your heart,I find my home.
Into the woods I went to find my lost pieces The pieces I hide once secretly, While my soul escaped for reincarnation I left some old instincts to rest there peacefully. The wildflowers have lost their fragrance and dried are the shrubs Orchids have turned blood red while the zephyr now brings the strong smell of corpse. The mystic land had lost it's vibrance There lies graveyard preserving dead emotions, Noxious intoxicants grows to prepare the elixer of death Even the nectar tastes like poison. Innocence and morality were burnt into ashes in the fire of apocalypse, Virtues trying to reach the empyrean were invaded by nightmares causing dark eclipse. The silhouettes were visible in vague Wild branches trapped the dove of holy spirit, Stygian gloom blocked the path of faith, Annihilation was never an option either But the agony and suffering so deep That peace found it's ultimate defeat. Vivid Bright aesthetics turned gothic and errie Like fairyland turned into Transylvania, Monsters,Witches,vampires whom should I blame? Wheather it's the end or the dawn of a new begining The reality of the woods still remains an enigma, a never-ending mystery.
It was the time of winter solstice,I was living my life in fragments. That day as the midnight stricked an unusual feeling made me realise I was pregnant. I remember the dream I saw once,It was a wicked lady cursing my unborn baby to death. She was chanting spells and it was making me weak,so weak that I couldn't hold my breath. Right when I woke up and saw blood stains on my bedsheet,my abdomen crumpled and a shriek escaped my lips,I got panic and gradually fainted. The other day I woke up screaming only to realise the dream isn't over yet. Lost in my thoughts when I saw an old woman heading towards me with a knife She disappeared leaving marks on my stomach,it's not hallucination I knew all they wanted was my unborn's life. The devil was inside me,consuming me with my every single breath. Creepy creatures took me to the darkest corner and dipped me into crimson blood. I found myself trapped between two realms,my skin pierced with sharp metallic studs. They forced their sharp nails inside my cervix and pulled it while I shout. It was none other than my premature baby coming out. He was burnt,red eyed and skin so vantablack, The last thing my teary eyes could capture was his malicious grin. I sacrificed to the journey of terror and pain where I lost the battle, It was the devil that I was nurturing It was my sweet little foetus so fatal.
He smoked a puff In his rocking chair Ashes selflessly dropped to the ground And amidst the fumes Awaited she. Amorous green eyes, Seduction sparkled in them. Bewitchingly violet lips Curves draped in red velvets //She- The rebirth of Aphrodite. And he- The mad Ares. // In the darkness of silent shadows Two silhouettes, dying to collide While the clouds cried desparate cries And the skies striked Mad anger at the earth, Even the winds feared To brush past these two wildfires Afraid, it would spark things up. Curtains danced to the tunes of thunderstorms, Stars sang them aubades And the night demanded to be spent In their arms. When his lips landed on hers, Petrichor filled the mist Even the roses bowed down in shame. Inch by inch, his hands found their way Deeper into her hairs And with every inch, Scintillating stars went an extra mile Across the vastness of the sky Only to kiss infinities. Hands pinned above head, Eyes down in submission Her only desire- Leaving her taste on just those extra inches, Not many could reach.
"Do you wish to own it for the night? " "Yes sire....."
_______________________________ PS: I leave the further part for y'all, get all the wild you want to with your imagination.
Suffering from writers block, this is all I could get myself to write. Hope y'all had a good read :')
She shot you, straight to your chest. In one blow, the love of your life shot you to death and you, now resent her in your eternal sleep. You spent the last few minutes of your existence feeling hatered. Now the tables are turned after you are welcomed to the silver city and shown you the episode that leads to your death. So you watch, how you were shot by her, how she lowered the gun and call someone and whispered in low sound, struggling to fight back tears. You saw how she kissed your forehead for the very last time and said, "sorry Love, I had no choice." You scoff, and laugh in mockery, but you watch further to humour the almighty. You see her driving off somewhere and talking to someone about how she did her job and now she wants what she'd ask for. "What a gold digger", you say draped in hatred and resentment. She climbed out of her car and stood there, trembling. A person walks towards her and holds her in his arms, tugging her hair from the nape of her neck, with exerted force and she whimper. Something inside you burns and you don't know if it's agony or jealousy. "Please I did what you asked me, please let her go please give me my mother back to me." She begged. You're now are stunned and the loathe inside you melts. The man laughs a hearty laughter and it was a sorry sight. He force himself on her and whispers "an end to the deal ma belle, wear your heart on your sleeves. Oh but you killed your heart just now, didn't you?" She froze. "Wh-why make me do it? Why kidnap my mother for to kill husband?" He smirked and the end of his lips curled upwards; a satisfactory smirk. He said "I'll have the will to myself sister in law." "That smug sinner" you cursed inside your breath and were escorted out to hell. So you see it's what happened to you, to your wife, your brother... AND WHAT ABOUT THE TRUTH. -
When all you feel is just ache? When you are breathing, but just for its sake? When you are forced to smile, no matter how fake? When you spend nights figuring out your mistake?
//How does it feel?//
When you try to weep, but your tears are dry? When your entire life just seems like a lie? When the sky is bright, but you're too tired to fly? When you wish you were dead, but don't know why?
//Doesn't it hurt?//
When you look at the mirror, and all you feel is shame? When life seems like a long lost game? When you look back in time, and wish it were all same? When you close your eyes, and realise you're the only one to blame?
//Is it over?//
When you failed people who once called you strong? When you cannot go back to where you belong? When life seems like one long sad song? When the wait for death has been too long?
In the suburbs, I see you sometimes, and so it goes ... Some invisible umbilical cord, we bond easily, when I meet you in the antique shop all these years, which I gave you, in the aisle, in the suburbs, in a holiday idyll, on the bed. Other things i've left behind, burn, let it burn, just take a suitcase of songs, a pair of faded images and that piece of mirror, in which we remained still smiling, in memory, in the suburbs, in silk ...
Why people write about heart breaks often? Don't they realise that the only thing that night loss from the day is "Light and noise"? The chaos of the world on side and the agony of not making art on the other. Holding back all the words that is scorching my throat is a bizzare journey to madness.
The footprints were remanats of the coffee stained journal, spilled with some reverie. Maybe this sea will bring peace someday, let the storm howl, it looks like a glass spread reflecting everyone sitting along the Marine drive. Wake up tonight, this reckless moonlight seems to have a life full of wailing memories.
I always think about future everyday, in the hope of earning it one day. Remember, everything has a page on it we can shed some colors instead of emptiness. Breathe slowly, for this air is filled with love. This bag tucked in the corner of the room isn't bleeding with justice for all your pain already?
The vermilion streaked sky is hiding a secret you won't believe what living in space feels like If I'd say, about all the strayed satellites sending back the signals, the existence of you and me is real, for sure the dying stars gives its spark to the universe, from where it all started. Breathe slowly, for your lungs is gasping for the sun.
I don't wanna go home tonight, for it has started turning like a cliff of the mountain. Maybe I should catch the fire and pet it, I hope it'll never burn me like my heart does. Maybe this evening is not meant for the first sip of coffee Or the last bite of truth, which I don't wanna gulp. You know what is more painful than the splinter of consciousness stuck in my eyes? Everything I urge to write goes down the ally of reader's mind, who is oblivious of my story.
I don't wanna go home with the same legs those are shaking since long, like a puppy left in snow. Maybe, this world wants me to hide all my emotions and is willing to kiss the weakness behind facade. I feel free when I write, I feel free when I write, I feel free when I write. Maybe, my words are nomadic birds, they search for warm nests in someone's life. You know when I cry under the shelter of happiness, even if the cocoon my anonymity is cleaving? Everything I dream must be written on air and engraved on gold, at least I crossed someone's memory for awhile.