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N if you told me you didn’t want meWhat else could I sayI couldn’t try to change your mindTrue love doesn’t work that way ©samantha_allender
Baby why you always got to play these games with meNever staying always leaveAm I not enough of what u thought I would be?©samantha_allender
Where you been ?
N baby now idk quite what to sayWords seem to escape me quite often these daysBut I’ll be ok. I tried to tell you, tried to reach out Let you know it was you ; that I can’t live withoutN then u turned away and left me in doubt Too stubborn to see how I was trying to work on myselfTo caught up to realize you was killing my heart. N when I fell apart, where were you from the start? Why didn’t you ever show up? U knew I needed that partHow come you couldn’t see what everyone else could? That my heart was all yours and if you would’ve opened your eyes Maybe you would of seen me here this whole time . But you were too blind and you let me go Much sooner than I’d hoped It’s been months and it still it aches in all of my bones...So tell me where is it you been That got you so caught up like this To the point We barley even talking like friends Baby tell me, cause I need to understand how you could do me like that all over again. ©samantha_allender
Just as much as Me....
N baby don’t be mistakenIt’s not like I don’t know that I can make it With or without you hereBut I’m telling you this ,cuz the truth of it is Since you been gone, nothing is getting any more clearN I know I had to go on this journey all aloneso that I could find what makes me , me.. and pick up all the parts that had fallen apart Rebuild the mold that keeps me wholeBut it’s been quite awhile Since you left nowAnd baby I’m not the same.So give me a chance , let me show you the parts I’ve put back together againCause boy Ive been thinking N I’m hopin if I Give it you know, my heart- in a better condition Maybe you’ll forgive me for all the things I couldn’t be N maybe , one day, you’ll say you want to stay just as much as me ©samantha_allender
Why do you Stay?
Baby don’t u see it?Jus how much I need this? N even tho u don’t need me tooI jus want to wanna be with youAnd please don’t just assumeCuz even tho on the outside everything is looking fine, from your view boy, u got my dying inside and that’s the real truth. N I’m starting to suffocate on the shit I never got to say Steadily Drowning underneath these emotional tidal waves, I’m Just trying to find my way back home to you babeAnd everyday, I’m pulled further away; I cave N if you won’t give it to me baby why do u stay? ©samantha_allender
I’m always so in love , it’s all in Till I’m all broke inside and now Im thinkingGod ! you make me feel it, N I Wanted it to be different This time , but your not around, nobaby your still missing in the minute N now I can’t even feel it; Body growing frail from the distance nowI thought maybe you would come back around.... But your not around.
I’m afraid to say I love you cause you might not say it backAnd I’m afraid to ask you to come home cause I’m not sure that’s where home currently is atAnd I’m trying to figure out where I stand but it ain’t easy when you r a million miles awayAlways so fucking distant and far away from meN I wanna say I need you but I ain’t trying to break And I wanna tell you that I ain’t gonna live with out your love inside of me But I don’t know if you’d think I’m tellin lies or if you’d believe in everything I’m telling you to believe Cause baby I’m running out of faith now and idk where we should be but I know I still ache inside When I think of you without me. So baby please hear me outLet me show you how much has changed Let me be the one I shoulda been Before you let go of me.©samantha_allender
N I wish that you could see meAnd feel me they way I do ; youBut it don’t seem like lately I’m really getting thruN I don’t mean to be the clinging typeBut boy you got me dangling for your loveFrom the rope you carry round your heart N now I’ve fallen n I’m too far goneSo I was hoping maybe You’d come thru and save meBefore I hang to death N Strangle on the love you gave meChoking on the nothing that is left ©samantha_allender
My parts aren’t all shattered and broken I promise there still some sparkle left in me So baby why don’t you come down for a minSo that you can seeCause so much has changed since we parted ways And I want a chance to show you this side of me.With parts that twinkle in the night and eyes that light up with glee...Baby I’ve grown so muchSince you been goneSo won’t you come and stay awhile with me please ....let me show you all the ways I’ve learned to spread my wings? ©samantha_allender
if you asked me to love you gentlyI’d kindly disregard. Bc every part of me is made up of love And I only know how to love you hard. So please forgive my gestures as they may seem a little extremeBc All of me is still inside youBut I’m so afraid you can’t feel a thing. ©samantha_allender