samantha_allender

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  • samantha_allender 19h

    N if you told me you didn’t want me
    What else could I say
    I couldn’t try to change your mind
    True love doesn’t work that way
    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 1w

    ?

    Baby why you always got to play these games with me
    Never staying always leave
    Am I not enough of what u thought I would be?

    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 1w

    Where you been ?

    N baby now idk quite what to say
    Words seem to escape me quite often these days
    But I’ll be ok.
    I tried to tell you, tried to reach out
    Let you know it was you ; that I can’t live without
    N then u turned away and left me in doubt
    Too stubborn to see how I was trying to work on myself
    To caught up to realize you was killing my heart.
    N when I fell apart, where were you from the start?
    Why didn’t you ever show up?
    U knew I needed that part
    How come you couldn’t see what everyone else could?
    That my heart was all yours and if you would’ve opened your eyes
    Maybe you would of seen me here this whole time .
    But you were too blind and you let me go
    Much sooner than I’d hoped
    It’s been months and it still it aches in all of my bones...
    So tell me where is it you been
    That got you so caught up like this
    To the point
    We barley even talking like friends
    Baby tell me,
    cause I need to understand how you could do me like that all over again.


    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 2w

    Just as much as Me....

    N baby don’t be mistaken
    It’s not like I don’t know that I can make it
    With or without you here
    But I’m telling you this ,cuz the truth of it is
    Since you been gone, nothing is getting any more clear
    N I know I had to go
    on this journey all alone
    so that I could find what makes me , me..
    and pick up all the parts that had fallen apart
    Rebuild the mold that keeps me whole
    But it’s been quite awhile
    Since you left now
    And baby I’m not the same.
    So give me a chance , let me show you the parts I’ve put back together again
    Cause boy Ive been thinking
    N I’m hopin if I
    Give it
    you know, my heart- in a better condition
    Maybe you’ll forgive me
    for all the things I couldn’t be
    N maybe , one day, you’ll say
    you want to stay
    just as much as me

    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 2w

    Why do you Stay?

    Baby don’t u see it?
    Jus how much I need this?
    N even tho u don’t need me too
    I jus want to wanna be with you
    And please don’t just assume
    Cuz even tho on the outside everything is looking fine, from your view
    boy,
    u got my dying inside and that’s the real truth.
    N I’m starting to suffocate on the shit I never got to say
    Steadily Drowning underneath these emotional tidal waves,
    I’m Just trying to find my way back home to you babe
    And everyday,
    I’m pulled further away; I cave
    N if you won’t give it to me
    baby why do u stay?


    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 3w

    Not around

    I’m always so in love , it’s all in
    Till I’m all broke inside
    and now Im thinking
    God ! you make me feel it,
    N I Wanted it to be different
    This time , but your not around, no
    baby your still missing in the minute
    N now I can’t even feel it;
    Body growing frail from the distance now
    I thought maybe you would come back around....
    But your not around.

  • samantha_allender 4w

    I’m afraid to say I love you cause you might not say it back
    And I’m afraid to ask you to come home cause I’m not sure that’s where home currently is at
    And I’m trying to figure out where I stand but it ain’t easy when you r a million miles away
    Always so fucking distant and far away from me
    N I wanna say I need you but I ain’t trying to break
    And I wanna tell you that I ain’t gonna live with out your love inside of me
    But I don’t know if you’d think I’m tellin lies or if you’d believe in everything I’m telling you to believe
    Cause baby I’m running out of faith now and idk where we should be but I know I still ache inside
    When I think of you without me.
    So baby please hear me out
    Let me show you how much has changed
    Let me be the one I shoulda been
    Before you let go of me.

    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 4w

    N I wish that you could see me
    And feel me they way I do ; you
    But it don’t seem like lately I’m really getting thru
    N I don’t mean to be the clinging type
    But boy you got me dangling for your love
    From the rope you carry round your heart
    N now I’ve fallen n I’m too far gone
    So I was hoping maybe
    You’d come thru and save me
    Before I hang to death
    N Strangle on the love you gave me
    Choking on the nothing that is left




    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 4w

    I’ve changed

    My parts aren’t all shattered and broken
    I promise there still some sparkle left in me
    So baby why don’t you come down for a min
    So that you can see
    Cause so much has changed since we parted ways
    And I want a chance to show you this side of me.
    With parts that twinkle in the night and eyes that light up with glee...
    Baby I’ve grown so much
    Since you been gone
    So won’t you come and stay awhile with me please ....
    let me show you all the ways
    I’ve learned to spread my wings?

    ©samantha_allender

  • samantha_allender 4w

    if you asked me to love you gently
    I’d kindly disregard.
    Bc every part of me is made up of love
    And I only know how to love you hard.
    So please forgive my gestures as they may seem a little extreme
    Bc All of me is still inside you
    But I’m so afraid you can’t feel a thing.
    ©samantha_allender