The day you stared at me and stopped crying making everybody around speechless was the day I knew you and me are gonna be so good together... The way you would not sleep and lay awake despite all the efforts of your mom until I returned from office only made me believe in you stronger.. You were all I needed to feel I had strong arms to hold me if ever I'd feel like falling.. You grew up to be so thoughtful.. I am proud now too but just a bit afraid.. I can't help it dear.. As you told me staring at me teary eyed last night.. I am mediocre.. I know I am mediocre.. I never have given you "yes"(s) without starting at a "no".. I am mediocre.. I know.. I never celebrated life.. I never showed you all I should have shown you maybe.. But I only wanted the best for you.. I knew you'd grow up bold.. but maybe it hurts seeing you grow up.. But you should know I love you.. P.S. Wish you'd talk.
Just take care ...that mediocre guy you call dad. .
Will you be afraid if someday all you hear is you telling yourself - "I wanna run away from all of this!" Like you are so damn tired of everything and you wanna give up.. But the simple thought of this scares you... Scares you for you don't know how everybody you love and everybody who loves you are gonna take it.. Like whatever you'd do would hurt them real bad.. And you end up staring ahead.. not knowing what you should do.. and simply lay there in your bed overthinking things and hurting..