One last time I felt like doing it again, Just one last time I felt like releasing the pain. My skin was begging me Trauma sticking like gum I couldn't find anything else Anything that could make me numb. From counters of cigarettes To stack of pills, From drinks to sudden chills. I'm choking on my own breath My overpowering wrath. Even in those bright daylights The sun couldn't light up My deepest darkest corners. I felt intoxicated I felt this toxic should leave me, For one last time Can people forgive me? I broke promises Burned bridges I closed doors My heart freezes. I spent nights drowning In my own emotions They begged me To set them free. Just for once One last time It won't hurt It will help to heal And it won't leave a scar Even if it does Nobody will ever see.
In those lanes of love We walked hand in hand Now in those wretched lonely paths We walk in opposite directions Admiration and affection filled eyes Now glistens with hopelessness Goofy smiles with tinted cheeks Now deep frowns cover the hollow face Warm and fuzzy feeling on our close proximity Now looking away even in farthest sight Fluttering lashes with fluttered beats of heart Pigmented under eyes with painful twisting of heart Being wrapped in your warm embrace To shivering in cold winter nights Those sweet stolen kisses and feathery touches Now burns the skin and feels scratchy
Life hurts to live with me without you Heart is fragile and breaking in pieces without you Eyes are empty without you I know its been a long while and you've moved on My tears have dried too really But that stupid lump in my throat still exists What should I do? Cry till I can't breathe or Just wish that I cry because I don't have any other release None suits me better Can I fight? No I can't Because... Damn it hurts so bad that I find it easy to feel the pain rather than fight Can I fix it? I tried, I swear I did But the damage was beyong repair You know why? Because that forever kind of love had come with an expiry date. I was terrified on realising I couldn't even resuscitate it back.
Guess what? I learnt a lot The burnt bridges of love Made new sidewalks to achievements The shed tears Cleared my vision and criterion The million pieces of heart Gave rise to new tiny lives within My guard walls are even higher now Nobody can climb it up easily Days are void But filled with genuine conversations with my dear ones Nights are vacant Yet spent with the constellations up there The messed up mess now looks beautifully messier now No need to say that I deserve better For now I know I'm better off alone Now I don't fall easily And even if I do I hope that person will catch me eventually unlike you.. Also I learnt to hold on and catch and rise in love.