silentsmile

her eyes grow tired but her mind is wide awake.

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  • silentsmile 111w

    Think

    You think you can fix me?
    Tell me can you fix shattered glass?
    No.
    You only end up cutting yourself on my edges.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 111w

    Fallen angel

    I was so innocent.
    I was so happy.
    I was so caring.
    I was so sweet.
    Notice how I said "was"
    I got a taste of chaos from his lips.
    I got a new point of view.
    I got the satisfaction of evil.
    I got the insane feelings..
    Notice how I said "I got" now let me tell you the affects of chaos
    I do crazy things.
    I say crazy things.
    I was kicked out of heaven and sent to hell
    I am what society pushed me to be but yet, they still don't accept me.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 111w

    Why

    Why is it that I can't listen to certain music like Jason Aldean anymore?
    Why is it that I cant go to a certain part of town anymore?
    Why is it that the tears start pouring when I hear your name?
    Why can't I sleep at night?
    Because he promised he wouldn't leave and he did.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 112w

    Do you?

    Do you ever just want to scream?
    Do you ever want to cry?
    Do you ever want to sigh and give up?
    Do you ever get so upset you pass out?
    Do you ever want to rip your skin off?
    Do you ever feel so alone?
    Do you ever have terrible thoughts of what it would be like to disappear?
    ...do you go days without sleeping?
    Do you ever force yourself to throw up after you eat because you feel worthless?
    Have you ever been to 8 funerals in one summer, and they be people you were scared to lose?
    If not then don't tell me what a mental struggle is.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 112w

    Home

    To most... Home is where the heart is
    For me.. I've never had a stable home. I've had a house but home.. No.. I say this because, I've never had an actual family, a stable one. So to me home.. Would be my safe place. I don't have one of those either.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 112w

    I don't expect you to care.. I expect you to not disappear..
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  • silentsmile 112w

    Watch what you say to others.. It may be the last thing they hear

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    The killing

    You see.. She didn't kill herself
    You killed her
    The words that crossed your lips
    The remarks you made to her virgin ears
    If you really knew...
    All the horrible things your words made her do to hide the pain...
    She didn't kill herself...
    She just wanted your words your voice to stop playing over and over again in her fragile mind
    She didn't kill herself..
    Your mocking at how she was killed herm
    She finally gave in to the demons in her mind that told her the same fucking things you did
    "if you cut yourself nobody will miss u"
    She didn't kill herself.
    The murder came across your lips.
    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 112w

    The things I think about scares me sometimes. It could be late at night or early in the morning... And I think of the embarrassing things. Why the hell would I wear a strapless dress knowing.... I'm too fat for that...? Why the hell would I try to find the courage to even speak on a stage? ....they say the only safe place is your thoughts... But I disagree. In fact I find it to be the most dangerous place.
    How do you kill your mind and the horrible thoughts in your brain but don't kill yourself?...Sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind. My mind, mentalstate, make box and lonely island... Are all one but yet so many things are in them. Tell me, when it's 2 am and your hand is over your mouth hiding the screams and sobs from your family because you know they don't care... Tell me why do I feel that same way at 3 in the afternoon? I get home..stare in my bathroom mirror and break down noticing every little flaw about myself. Skipping meals, makes you feel better about it all. Mutilation makes you hold on, and helps you feel happier...more in power....
    You go to school and smile, laugh and hang out with friends. You tell jokes hoping it hides the way you are really feeling.
    ....he comes along... And suddenly.... Not all but some things in your mental island disappear. But yet you grow tired.... Not of feeling not goodenough for you.. But for him. So... You stay silent... With your hand over your mouth... And the tears fall down your face.

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    TRUTH

    ©silentsmile

  • silentsmile 113w

    I've snapped (me)

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    Snapped

    His words go through her ears
    Snap
    His words pierce her mind like knives
    Snap
    His hurtful actions get to her
    Snap
    His mistress, her own friend
    Snap
    His lies and memories flood in
    Snap
    She feels anger no longer pain
    Snap
    The innocent girl snaps... She turns into a new person. A new person who is no longer afraid. A new person who is cruel...shes finally snapped..

  • silentsmile 113w

    Protector

    You see my sister is mentally disabled.
    I help the kids in my school who are like her.
    These kids mean a lot to me
    One day... A jock at my school was bullying a boy who couldn't speak.... I'm only 5'1 the bully was 6'3...i slammed his ass to the ground.
    I'm small but I'm mighty. Stick up for those who can. Be the voice for the voiceless. Be a protector to the innocent.
    ©silentsmile