That day, I was coming to meet you, was just having my day meal and the phone rang. Right in this moment, Clock ticked the same, just an year ago. Papa told he was coming back from work and we need to go to the hospital. You were living your last few minutes. It was too late, and i lost you! Forever. I never wanted to believe this kind of forever. For the first time i wanted to believe that 'Forever is a myth'. That corner of the ICU and that hospital bed, nothing felt so haunting ever. Yes, death haunted me that day. I saw you, and then papa holding your hand tears in his eyes. That very first time i saw him weeping. I held your hand, you didn't hold it back! this was something that never happened. It was freezing cold. Your eyes wide open. Just staring that ceiling. Numb. Lifeless. Nothing ever made my chest ache so much. Nothing could ever make that heart under my ribs go so dead. That lil girl in me just wanted one miracle. But it's reality. If i would've been just few hours early i would've met you! At least for that one last time. Yes, Regrets. They suck! Today after an year, these eyes still remember, how your peaceful laughs went pale how your hands didn't hold my hand back. the ache in the chest is still the same. It accretes. This could be just a date for many but for me it's a feeling. feeling of loss feeling of helplessness feeling of hatred, hatred for that almighty. It feels nothing because this feels more than anything i could ever pen down. Nothing i could ever yell in words. It marked an end, end of a bond. But nothing could ever be able to lessen my love for you. I believe, You exist with me! With us. In our memories, memories that no one can steal!
Mine, I crave for the lil things, that mean so much to me. I won't ask you to gift me a lot of expensive stuffs instead i would just ask you to hold my hand and make it till eternity. Will you promise me? Will you promise me to stand by my side when everyone else would betray their forevers? 'Cause I promise to do the same. Will you promise to put up with all of my mood swings, I know they are intolerable at times, but will you? 'Cause i promise to live with all of your tantrums. Will you promise me to never unlove me? People often fall out of love, and this scares the hell out of me. I pray that you won't. And I promise to love you forever. Will you promise to never give up on us? I know m such a mess at times, but all i know is I Love You in every possible way. Stick by my side. I promise to never let these stupid things make our love less stronger. Will you promise to never let me feel unwanted, and let me not sound stupid for desperately wanting you? Because i will never let you feel less important. Will you promise not to be strong enough to let me go? Because m way too weak when it comes to see my favourites taking a step back. Will you be weaker than that when it comes to me? Promise me, you will stay. Promise me, not to make me regret my love. Promise me, you will always stay same. Promise me, to make me believe forever(s) again. Promise me to never let me go. Promise me, to love me the kinda love everyone yearns for. Promise me!