You there? I hope you are. I just want to say, you are like a drug. I still can't overcome from you. You made my year blissful, my heart soulful and my life beautiful.
Do you remember? Those nights when we were used to talk. It was not my habit to wake up all the night, but i did only for you. Just to talk to you because without talking to you my day was incomplete.Even i have screenshots of our chats because i never want to forget our sweet and sour chats. I still read those beautiful chats because this is the only treasure i have of you.
U know what , The day when we first time talked on the phone , i heard your voice and i was like " I found a girl for me " Who has a voice coated with caramel. I recorded your voice for two reasons. One is you are the first girl with whom i was talking on the phone and the second one is you are the one for whom my heart was saying yes she is, yes she is the love of your life.
There is more to write, more to express but i don't want to do that 'coz it doesn't matter anymore.. So Happy New Year, u made me realize what true love is, you are the one with whom i was dreaming to share my whole life. I want to dance with you, sing with you, walk with you on the road with hands on the hands. But it can't happen. May be it wasn't writhen in my destiny. But I'll never stop dreaming of you.
In this cold dark night , i still need her warm hug to fix me , to fix my broken heart as well as soul also. Though i know she doesn't have the same feeling for me just like i have , also the situations are not as same as before. But see again my fingers are on the keyboard to write something on her and my heart is willing to pour the essence of my love into this.
I don't know that my love for her was true or not but it is something in which i dont want to fall again.. I don't know whether should i say this to her, i know she has already rejected my proposal and told me that she doesn't want to give me fake hopes. But she comes in my dreams everyday. She always sits beside me whenever i feel low , She talks to me, i made her laugh, but it all happens in my dreams. Why not in reality?.
Am i not good enough? Or it is like she deserves better than me? Or it is like we're not made for each other? All these questions are constantly running in my mind. And the worst thing is that my love for her is considered as a one sided love 'coz she never loves me like i do. It was me who always pushing myself and giving hope to myself that one day it will happen. She will also love me. But it doesn't happen.
I'm not good these days, her memories are keep haunting me. I am not the same one just like i was before she left me . I am changed and her memories are keep changing my condition from bad to worse. I lost my smile when i lost her, that night. Whenever i think of her, tears come in my eyes. Now, I've to live like this without her but with her memories, with our little story.